lost scent of warm

[i_love_iris_flammea]

i am member of few forums and if i had to find similarities between them(including tremulous) it would be  thousands of people accusing each other of "not having a life" etc.i realized i do not have one.i am reloading my browser to check for feedback of my posts like i was waiting for salvation thou things that i post are meaningless. so what if i prove that somebody is retarded beaus she/he don't knew game mechanics and still that person consider herself/himself  leet or owning somebody on any other thread not related to the main topic(off topics).the truth is i am living in a shithole where its even hard to buy drugs that are better option that motherfuckin booze time (btw i am drunk).i consider myself as a attractive and intelligent(with big ego )person with high standards of ppl i would like to share some of me(population of my town=1000 :its hard to find those).i don't mean to sound dramatic i am just curious how many of you would be enough sincere to admit they are in similar situation .when i see somebody logged almost 12h/day i think he or she may understand what i am saying(and i see a lot of those).
to ppl who spend to much time next to pc simple explanation of what i have wrote:
lot of data compileted by notfulfillingyourself.exe to terabytes of loneliness behind firewall that became unbreakable.

[Plague Bringer]

That's one of the most meaningfull posts here.

lot of data compileted by notfulfillingyourself.exe to terabytes of loneliness behind firewall that became unbreakable.

That's a very moving quote. It's very intellegent, also.

[Evlesoa]

That's one of the most meaningfull posts here.

lot of data compileted by notfulfillingyourself.exe to terabytes of loneliness behind firewall that became unbreakable.

That's a very moving quote. It's very intellegent, also.

Sum1 explain what that quote shit means? Translation as I understand it:

Lot of Data Compileted by notfulfillingyourself.exe to terabytes of loneliness behind firewall that became unbreakable MEANS...

Ma Junk put together by not doing something to myself.exe to a number of space of being lonely behind a firewall that is blabla...

Wtf? And umm, yeah... thats real... INTELLIGENT

[The MC Horton Crankfire]

And umm, yeah... thats real... INTELLIGENT

On the contrary: you were outsmarted by a wasted guy.

[n00b pl0x]

not saying i have a life, but im online for like 12 hours because trem.net is an open tab in my browser as long as my comp is up, no matter whether im at it or not.

[ShadowNinjaDudeMan]

I have an active life, sports, friends, this is something I regard as a faveourite game, I really like it.
But that was very moving in fact I Love Iris Flamma.
Shows hes not just a dickhead, but he has a reason.
(No Offence Meant, btw)

[Lava Croft]

Life? What's that?

[Bajsefar]

I often think about this..
Everybody has a craving to leave something in the human culture, maybe by getting a shitload of children, making great works of art that get remembered after you are dead, saying smart stuff that people remember...

You could of course make yourself remembered within an internet community like this- so in a way this is sort of a life. But i think it gets too narrow and unrewarding, you have to expand and grow in more ways than one.. This is how unchecked, unending gaming is dangerous.. How are you leaving a trace? You want to leave as big a scar as you can in human history, only the greatest will do this.

Since this is too hard it is easy to just give up and loose yourself in the momentary fun of a computer game.

But i, (and many others too i suspect) are leading an internal struggle about what they want their lives to contain.

Think of Timbo&co, they have created something that a large group of people appreciate.. How it must feel great.

The irony is that what they have created undoubtedly is doing its share of hindering other people in setting a similar flag.

When i fall into this train of thought... Sometimes i think that everything is just the movement of atoms, the movement of energy, and that us humans- We dont have anything to say, we dont make any difference... ..This is when i get scared and stop thinking.

Sometimes i get depressed about my inability to become really close to people and communicate.. This is when i play computer,  I realize I have a problem and i am daily fighting it. Though my problem is not as big as others, it is still there.

Other times i think that i should get things straight, and that it is not very bad at all... ..This is when i go out, but my life is discontentially empty of friends that do not have the same problems as me..

I want to have an official day where the master server is down and the forums are down, i know it would help a lot of people, computer addiction is a growing problem, and is in its own way more scary than drug/ alcohol problems. In fact, i'd like there to be some sort of international day of week where all online games shut down their servers.

Just my thoughts on the issue.

[Lava Croft]

I yearn for emptiness.

[tuple]

I yearn for coffee

[treminator]

This whole thread feels like a decaf moment.  I just wanted to tell all you guys with my beer in hand, "I love you, maaaaan".  You know, in a platonic kind of way.  It's ok to hug another man over the internet, right?

[Bajsefar]

No, fuck you.
This is supposed to be taken seriously because it is.

Not everybody in here has the same sort of problem, but i know a lot has.

And if not drinking coffee makes you think then i seriously advise you to stop the caffeine.

[i_love_iris_flammea]

to be honest the day after i posted this(the day when my head was hurting) i was expecting enormous flames and lolz.i am really pleasantly surprised with feedback.

Bajsefar wrote few things worth concerning but as i think of it more deeply
but  i am about 100% sure that discussing those things would lead us to very sad and decadent conclusions so maybe it will be better to leave them untouched.
however i am glad that somebody gets the picture - i mean good for me bad for u)

[PIE]

I often think about this..
Everybody has a craving to leave something in the human culture, maybe by getting a shitload of children, making great works of art that get remembered after you are dead, saying smart stuff that people remember...

Why. You live your life through your prospective. Ultimately the only actions that alter your prospective happen during your lifetime unless your assuming an afterlife through which you will continue to observe the ripples of your life. This is just a frame of mind people get in and its from not being able to slow down and enjoy every part of life, the big and the small without trying to find some meaning to the greater whole of society. There is meaning in every second of life you experience, that is what impacts you and that is what life is, not the legacy you leave to others.

If you feel crippled by a problem, such as the ability to communicate or a lack of respect from others limiting your experience or making you feel less than you are, there are solutions, but the ultimate solution is to remember that everything is a small part of something bigger but is ultimately unique and limited and to not let anything but yourself be in control of these moments.

I'm sick of people saying stuff like shut off your computer/server etc. My childhood was greatly impacted by computer addiction, and there is a good deal to be gained by telling these people to get up off of their seats and go do something in the real world that may better their experience, but the net is vast. Shutting down a community does nothing, there are always more. Its like telling kids not to have sex. They are going to. Its up to you whether they do it right. Its the CHOICE for them to get up and try to do something that is important, and its important that that choice is emphasized and that our society can take advantage of this resulting addiction to diagnose a problem and provide a cure that wasn't there before. Frankly lost of kids run through a point of addiction when life becomes difficult. I'd rather them run to the net than to drugs. A lot of drugs there is just no coming back from. The net can still teach you a lot and help you grow. And drugs will never tell you to stop, while people on the net might try to help you.

There is nothing ultimately morose about any of this unless you were in that frame of mind to start with. Its not good for you flammea because you feel you have a problem, but what have YOU done about it?

And caffeine to a point does raise mental acuity bajsefar. Thats just a chemical fact.

[Steely Ann]

Gotta love drunken posts.  Where would civilization be without them, I ask you?

[i_love_iris_flammea]

what have YOU done about it?
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the cause of me not always being happy about my life is place where i live and study.have one more year to get degree till then i am immobilized as jesus on the cross.so u can see i can't do nothing but sometimes telling somebody about your problem is relief in itself and i think that was what i was trying to accomplish the night i posted in here.

[ShadowNinjaDudeMan]

I like spilling my problems like a coffee stain onto the pristine tablecloth that is the internet.
We all have to release it and let it go.
This guy has the point of it.
Its good that people can open up.

Life isnt too bad, I got some pretty dissapointing exam results today. Ive been drowning myself in the internet to relieve myself.

But Im scheduled to return to the real world in 4 minutes.

[PIE]

what have YOU done about it?
.

the cause of me not always being happy about my life is place where i live and study.have one more year to get degree till then i am immobilized as jesus on the cross.so u can see i can't do nothing but sometimes telling somebody about your problem is relief in itself and i think that was what i was trying to accomplish the night i posted in here.

One more year to get the degree huh... ROFL I've been in a degree countdown in a city I hate since middleschool. I graduated last week and i'm moving next week. If grinning and bearing it aren't your thing.. there is always something to be done though. Always something small that can take the strain off.. whether its posting or jogging or throwing eggs at little old ladies. The only thing is.. you have to realize that after you get your degree you may just end up wanting what comes next to be over with as well.

[Glunnator]

Life? What's that?

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